Sacrifices

We Only Wanted the Grass

We wanted very little.

Grass, water, somewhere dry when it rained. A patch of shade in summer. Enough room for the lambs to run before they grew sensible.

There was plenty of grass. That was what made everything so difficult to understand.

“Why can’t they eat it?” I asked the Creator. “Look at these hills. We couldn’t finish them if we grazed all our lives.”

I was speaking about the wolves.

The Feast of the Lamb in a World of Wolves

What would a feast look like for a lamb?

In a world at peace, we might imagine fertile fields, abundant grass, clear water, and nothing to fear. The lamb eats and rests. There is enough for everyone.

But put that lamb among wolves, and the meaning of the feast changes. There is still a feast. The wolves are eating.

The lamb is the meal.

Holy Warrior's Life is Completely Worthless

The life of a believer is precious. The life of a prophet is more visibly precious still. To attack an unarmed believer because of his faith is persecution. To kill a prophet because he speaks the truth is an offence repeatedly condemned in Scripture.

Then the believer takes a sword.

A Practical Guide to Dealing with Demons

Every practical approach must begin with a foundation. If the foundation is wrong, everything built upon it will eventually collapse. My entire understanding of demons rests upon one principle that may initially sound strange, perhaps even offensive:

The problem of demonic affliction belongs foremost to the exorcist.

Jesus Without Atonement Theory

  1. God does not need to be reconciled to humanity.
    Humanity needs to be reconciled to life.
    God’s mercy is not triggered by payment; it precedes repentance.
  2. Sin is not a crime against God but a departure from God.
    It does not injure the Creator; it destroys the creature.
    Sin enslaves, blinds, and diminishes. Its consequence is death because separation from life cannot produce life.
  3. Death is not God’s punishment but sin’s destination.

The Ever-Present God: Suffering, Patience, and the Refusal to Escalate

There is a persistent assumption in religious thinking that God must “step in.” That He is somewhere else. That suffering exists because He has not yet intervened. This assumption feels hopeful. It suggests that if we cry loud enough, sacrifice enough, intensify enough, then perhaps God will arrive and rescue us.

But what if that assumption is the very root of multiplied suffering?

I. The False Premise: God Is Elsewhere

Human beings instinctively imagine that God is away. This creates a structure of escalation:

The Ever-Present God

Brothers and sisters,

We have misunderstood suffering.

We have built an entire theology on a false premise — the premise that God is somewhere else.

We imagine Him distant. Watching. Waiting. Deciding whether to intervene. We assume that if we cry louder, sacrifice harder, intensify enough — perhaps He will step in.

But what if that assumption is the very root of our misery?

What if God was never absent?

The Lie of Escalation

Human beings believe that suffering can be solved by multiplying it.

Debates on the Golden Calf episode

Position Summary (for clarity)

The Golden Calf episode is not primarily about greed or primitive idolatry, but about humans attempting to force divine presence through sacrifice and righteous action.
Gold is surrendered, Mammon is abandoned, yet a deeper idol emerges: human righteousness claiming leverage over God.

When Giving Everything Still Isn’t Trust

Let me tell you a story you already know—but maybe not in this way.

The people of Israel had been freed from slavery. They had crossed the sea. They had seen miracles. And then Moses went up the mountain—and did not come back.

Days passed. Then weeks.

And the people became afraid.

Not just afraid of dying in the desert, but afraid that God Himself had gone silent.

And when God feels absent, people don’t usually stop believing.
They start doing.

They say, “We must act. We must fix this. We must help God along.”

The Golden Calf, Seen from the Edge

I did not go forward when Aaron called for gold.

Not because I was wiser.
Not because I understood anything better than the others.

I did not go forward because I had nothing to give.

When the call went out—“Bring your gold, your earrings, your bracelets”—the camp stirred like a hive struck by a stick. People rushed. Hands trembled with urgency. Pouches were opened. Jewelry came off necks and arms with a speed I had never seen before. Gold flashed everywhere in the sun, bright as fire.

And something else flashed too.

Pride.

Sacrifices